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d kid next door...

I was so certain that i have seen this phase b4...

I'm in Geneva now... alone... and t'was so cold outside... i thought the sun could help me feel a little bit warmer, but dahhhh the wind suddenly freeze me down... and so i decided to go back to my room...

as i was saying, i was so certain that I've seen this phase b4... that little gurl cuddled by her mom next door... i looked at her... she looks at me... so silenty... so magical.. as if she was telling me something... i smiled... she stared... i frowned... she remains staring at me... then her mom suddenly ask her, "baby, would you love to go down and play?"... she remains silent... staring at me... then.... my tears fell..... i saw her hugging her mom so tight saying... "NO mommy... i'm scared to be alone..."

The kid next door is like a silhouette of my childhood days.... i miss home... i terribly miss home....... "mommy... i miss hugging you when i'm scared..." ;(

Damn me...

Damn these hands of mine

Writing again another line...

Damn this heart of mine

If it meant again to release a sigh...

Thinking of you never ever escapes me

From battling with my pride and my stupidity

I know i already have you deep within me

But why this missing feeling comes unpredictably?

Sometimes i wonder if i really can make it up there?

Waiting in line to see you asking for your fair share...

Sometimes i felt so tired i even got so scared

Will our love be enough to bring us back together?

Hayyy here i am again feeling so weak and sad

I just miss you badly and those times we've had

But don't be afraid dear coz im still holding on to that

A promise from me to you to be your toughest lad........

I can make it up there... trust me...

I just miss you badly... terribly....

My love for you will never ever fade...

Even if i have to face again a thousand heartaches...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

June 28, 2007 (Thursday)

Out of the blue....

its my first time to write sumthng out of the blue... its already past midnyt here in brussels and im still totally awake... hmmm maybe because the long vacation will soon be over (9 days wid elf and sum filipino crew frens -richelda and mary jane)... no more shoppings for presents in brussels...no more hapi moments in niagara falls... no more laughing down those crowdy shops in toronto.... no more long talks at nights...hayyyyyy Life will soon be back to normal as i return bak to abu dhabi later dis afternoon.....:(

But...hmmmmm.... good dat il be having my vacation agen very very soon...and dis time il be spending it home! yepey!!! or else il find myself stuck missing those hapi moments i had wid them (tnx guys!)... hmmmmm...cnt hardly wait... il be seeing my mom, my dad, my siblings, relatives, and closests frens agen....and yahhh il be seeing agen my soon-to-be 'better half'....hehe... yah... now all im thingking is to get through all with dis and sum more few working flyts then finally il be back home agen!!!!!!! how was that??? excited as me huh??? yah.. ders reli reli nothing compares home..... ders reli reli nothing compares the hapiness uve got from dos ppol u called family.... real frens... and ofcors from sum1 who teaches u d real meaning of love....

guys..... il be home soon.... and i mean it very very soon.... so see u all around sooooooonnnnnn.......

mwuahhhhhhhhhh

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Days and nights are passing by

I felt so weak I wanna cry

Imagining you hugging me so tight

I just couldn't help my tears run dry...

I miss those days that I am with you

How we spend the night dreaming and wishing through

If I could just make hold of the time, I'll do

I'll be freezing it forever the moment I'm with you...

Coz I miss you so badly I really really do

If only I could reach you and tell you how true

I wanna spend my whole life loving you

I just wanna be right beside you too...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

April 10, 2007 (Tuesday)

Aircraft from AUH-MUC

I Miss You...

I have cried a million times

Felt so low like you never mind

Alot had been bothered they asked me why?

I said nothing really there's just something in my eye.

And then days passed they've noticed I'm not the same

I usually laugh out loud but now t'was like no one came

They ask me what happen lately I've been so strange?

I said don't worry about me really nothing had changed.

'Coz the silence I've made was not because I'm sad

I was just too bothered by you and the time you've had

Lately you've been so busy I often get mad

I know I shouldn't be 'coz you're not doing something bad.

But tell me Dear what's best I should do?

Will my waiting be enough to tell you it was true

That I never was jealous whoever is with you?

I just simply wanna feel you misses me too...

'Coz... I do...

I miss you....

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

March 8, 2007 (Thursday)

I love you my kuya

I was seated on my jumpseat above 10,000 feet

Looking through my window feeling each and every heart beat

When i was thinking 'bout you my subconsciousness runs deep

I found myself asking: Is our relationship worthy to keep?

I was too far from you physically unseen

Too far for you to even hug and lean

Though we were talking everyday still it seems

Distance hunts me everywhere i've been.

I love you my Kuya, i really really do

That's why all i'm asking is for you to be true

Coz if there is only one word that i believe unto

T'was the promises of love and forever from you.

And so no matter how far Ate seems to be

And no matter how many times she falls weak as you see

She will never get tired loving you sincerely

Coz all she believes in is that, you are her destiny!

I love you my kuya...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

February 27, 2007 (Tuesday)

Aircraft from AUH-JFK

A letter from my kuya...

Dear te Aubz

Thank you for all the love that you've given to me. Thanks for all the happiness that you shared with me. A happiness that I could never compare to anything else. Hopefully all our plans would be nearer even I could never wait to that moment.

Love you so much te Aubz. I would do all my best or not only the best but the very best.

I can't wait to see you and be with you again te aubz. Swear I will wait for you till the last. Mwah!!!

Gonna miss you a lot.

Tama na kay kahilakon na jud ko habang nagasulat.

Love you so much,

KUYA TED

May 12, 2006 (Friday)

Missing Him...

I am missing someone so bad...

That i couldn't help but let myself been crazily mad...

I am deeply inlove with a very 'miles away' man...

That all i could do is imagine reaching him by my hand...

Hmmm...

Did he ever knew i was thinking of him?

Did he ever felt the love that distance bring?

If i could just make some miracles about things...

Then i could be with him without any split thingking...

I miss him so much i really really do...

If you happen to see him please tell him that too...

I am so down now that i don't know where to go...

Should i hug him in my dreams or just let anybody know?

Hmmm...

Did he ever knew i was thinking of him?

Did he ever felt the love that distance bring?

If i could just make some miracles about things...

Then i could be with him without any split thingking...

I just really really miss him........

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

August 19, 2006

(Saturday)

Uncertain Times...

I may never be perfect in anybody's eyes...

I could never be perfect even though how much i tried...

I am only human and that's a fact i cannot deny...

I am nothing but just an ordinary me that has nothing to hide...

Yes, i am strong that's what i seem to be...

Never was afraid to any difficulty...

But just like any waves that you noticed to see...

I also had my hard times when controlled by the sea...

I might sometimes seem to be so wild and crazy...

Just like any happy go lucky girl full of fantacy...

But then just like you and any other thee...

I also cried so hard like an unguarded baby...

And so if ever time will come and then you will see...

I fell down from a very steep though shallow tree...

Please go back and take a look at me...

I might needed your help or from just anybody...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

August 15, 2006

(Tuesday)

A letter from him to me...

Hi Aubrey!

Here Am I standing by

Here to listen here to stay

Anytime anyday...

I will try to brighten your day.

You hold me up when I was weak

You helped me find what it is I seek

You pulled me up when the tide is high

Absorbing your voice told me that I should never cry.

So here am I...

Through thick and thin

Here to stay and will never say goodbye...

They say...

Friends will come and friends will go,

The seasons change and it will show

I will age and so you will

But our friendship stays strong and true.

Smile Aubrey!

TED

October 22, 2003

(Wednesday)

A letter from me to him...

Kuya Ted,

The moment I realized I had you here to appreciate me

My life had changed and so the dreams I wish to be

Now I know and now then I see

How my real friends mean a lot to me.

Kuya Ted,

Thank you so much for letting me know

And assuring me that there's no letting go

Though honestly then I was so afraid to show

I am but too scared to loose you bro...

Kuya Ted,

If time will come and our feelings will change

May it be more or less than the same

Please bear in mind that I wouldn't bet

On loosing you then just for me to regret.

Kuya Ted,

Thank you so much for the trust...

Thank you so much for all the promises...

Thank you so much for the chance of knowing you...

And thank you so much for staying still...

Wish you real hapiness Kuya...

Sincerely,

Ate Aub's

October 23, 2003

(Thursday)

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Circumstances had taught us that life is unfair

It seems to be always unjust and bare

When things go wrong and you are in despair

A friend seems to be lost somewhere.

Sometimes you thought that's just what it brings

Confusions and doubts to question our fears

But then you must analyze if all are in glee

How can anyone feel the beauty that we see?

Life my friend is like a wondering bee

Sometimes it seem to be naughty and free

But when it starts producing the sweetest honey

Everyone seems to be proud and truly happy.

It is like exactly what you've been through nowadays

You seem to be having a lot of dismays

You start to questions all the things that you feel

When all that you do is to love her real.

My friend my friend life is like that

Sometimes you knew the answers sometimes you do not

But then life must go on and you must believe

If someone is lost someone won't leave...

So keep your head high and take a deep breath

Tell the whole world you are willing to bet

That someday you'll know what God has set

And it is something you knew you would never regret!

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

October 15, 2003

(Wednesday)

I kissed goodbye, goodbye!

The world already had taught me to see

"Goodbyes" are always part of the journey

Whenever someone says "hello" to me

I should have expected the pain it carries me.

Yes oh yes I really hate "goodbyes"

It made my heart wanted to cry

And even though how much I really try

It seems to me that time does justify.

But then I know and I always hope

Someday I'll find someone to hold

To him I know I will never grow cold

Coz he will be like an angel God behold.

And so this time I chose to fight

I will start kissing goodbye, goodbye

Coz in time I know all those tears will dry

And soon they'll say, "Aubrey" nice try!

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

October 9, 2003

(Thursday)

Till Then...

Once in my life I tried knowing someone new

Once in my life I thought it was already you

Never have I imagine what I am suppose to do

After loving my past so much now I turned to you.

But I guess it is just another nightmare

Thinking that we will end up together

I thought it would be you who'll teach me forever

I was definitely wrong when I heard you still loved her.

Oh, How it really hurt me so much

Knowing you haven't been out of your past

But still I am here to prove it right to you

I can let you go just to see hapiness in you.

That is why I am telling this to you now

Go to her and don't ever ask me how

'Coz though life will be like a hell when you're gone

Heaven still i'll feel when I see you with your sun!

And before I leave please let me add

Promise me you will never be sad

Go and tell the world you want her back

Do love her please more than what I've given up!

Till then...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

September 29, 2003

(Monday)

Sa Oras Ng Aking Pag-iisa

Maaaring sa oras na ito ako na nama'y nag-iisa,

Iniisip na lamang kung ika'y nasa'n na kaya?

Sa bawat paglipas ng umaga at gabi,

Lagi ko na lamang naaalala ang iyong mga ngiti.

Kailan ko pa nga ba kaya makakalimutan ka?

Sa halos lahat ng oras anino mo'y wari'y nadarama.

Sa bawat saglit lang na ako'y nag-iisa,

Mukha mo parati ang aking nakikita.

Minahal nga cguro kita ng labis-labis sinta,

Kaya ako ngayo'y nahihirapang mapalitan ka.

Sino nga kayang tao ang makakalamang pa,

Sa taas ng iginuhit mo sa puso ko'y marka na?

Ngunit ganun pa man, ako ay umaasa,

Darating din ang bukas at ako'y 'di na mag-iisa.

Magkaganun pa ma'y pasasalamatan parin kita,

Ng dahil sa iyo ako ay mas tumapang pa!

Ni: Aubrey-V G. PIlapil

August 2, 2003

(Saturday)